is today his day? :]] ang sobrang coincidence ng mga nangyayari. first, idk out of nowhere tinignan ko mga sent messages ko kay EX (ya'll know who he is) then i just realized how pitiful & hopeless i am before. na ang dating, sobrang BITTER ko and i've become a HATER coz of him. nababadtrip ako sa sarili ko kasi i ain't like this sa mga EX's ko. ako pa nga nangiiwan eh. ako pa yung may lakas ng loob makipag hiwalay kahit na yun lng yung lalake na naging totoo sakin at trinato ako ng tama. yun lng din yung lalakeng nirespeto ako. tapos iniwan ko pa. pero kasi tapos na yun at i can never bring the past back lalo na sa sitwasyon ko ngayon. it's fucking impossible. :\ naisip ko lng kasi bakit of all 'em girls na naging kanya, why it has to be me? ang malas malas ko,yan pakiramdam ko. kasi when we broke up ok nko. as in. yung tipong living my old life again. pero nung nalaman ko na he's got me pregnant, dun ako nabaliw! kung anu anu na ginawa ko just to win him back. eh matigas eh. i couldn't do anything anymore. kasi nothings left for me anymore. miski katiting na pride! to the point na pati friends ko are tired of listening to me kasi ako rin i won't listen to them. & so as my family. siguro di lng nila ko maiwan kasi who's gonna help me pa dbah? sila lang. no one else. :\ for the past 6 months, ang daming times na akala ko magiging ok na ulit kami. but i guess im wrong. i shouldn't assume pala talaga lalo na when it comes to him. in a way there's always regret. pero eto na eh. i just hafto deal with it & be strong. coz if he can't do it. sino pa? edi ako na lang. it's always been me thats doing all the effort and going thru such pain and hurt.
